The Wedding Ring

I was watching my favorite movie of all time yesterday, Gone With The Wind.  When I noticed Scarlett always kept her wedding ring on, even after the man she married, whom she held no true care for, had passed away.  So the act was not in memory of him nor was it for sake of tradition, as her major concern throughout the entire movie was to be with an unavailable man, and she expressed her unconcern for things of this nature in another scene while everyone recited prayers, her mind was on this man.

I thought for a minute and remembered another woman, Wendy Williams, a day time talk show host.  Not ever do I choose to watch this show, let alone any show, TV just isn't my thing.  But one day sitting and watching it for a minute because my grammy was viewing, she was making such a big fuss over how horrible she felt not having her wedding ring on in public.  She even took a black marker and drew one on her finger.  Wow.  This woman has breast implants, wears false eyelashes, tons of makeup and holds a great concern for her fashion and appearance, even outside of the show, so my take on her is that she is extremely concerned with the thoughts and expressions of those around her.  The opinion of others is a heavy weight on her.

While not understanding her expressions of great concern for her missing wedding ring, my initial thought was "how dumb", but I didn't really understand why it was so important to her and to many women, till now.  To be single is a matter of great concern and misery to these women.  Not solely for the reasons of being lonely or in need of companionship, but for what having a husband represents to them.  Once one husband doesn't work out, for whatever reason, you can bet another will be soon to come.  That's just how it is for them.

I'm a single thirty one year old woman right now.  My wedding finger used to burn and itch for the want of having a husband.  For the need of having what I do not have, and feeling "wanted" like some women. I often compared myself to others who are married, I wanted so badly to be "off the market".  Then I stopped that shit.  Realizing so many people are trapped in a failing and abusive marriage, I'd be much wiser to appreciate my solo stroll time right now because I understand true marriage as an unmistakable occurrence between two hearts.  It is not something that happens to everyone or at least not everyone can have enough sight to see it and feel it when it does happen.

For a very short time, most likely less than six months, I wore an engagement ring when I was eighteen.  It felt people looked upon me with a lessened judgement in the manner that I had a baby with me and it's openly expected and viewed with less negativity in our societies around the world that a girl should be married if she has a child.

I realize that to so many women, wearing a wedding ring is significant in that it creates a sense of being "taken".  Whatever that really feels like, I do not know.  But I do know the opposing feeling of being available at a later age and how this represents a somewhat difficult time in life for so many of us.  Just like Wendy, these women need to feel the false sense of security that this object represents to them.

I find most women of the "superficial" nature care greatly for a very expensive ring.  It holds stature to the other superficial people of their little circles.  People like Beyonce whom have people create hundred thousand dollar barbie's to boast about.  To these people marriage is very appearance oriented first and foremost.

I too held this unaware manner of walking though life, like a zombie.  But then something changed, I was challenged and so had to  clear myself of "dogma", and research and internal searching brought me into awareness.

After watching the movie "Blood Diamond", I decided I'd never wear a diamond again.  And still this remains the fact.  If ever I get married, a humble band will serve, then again, I might just not wear a ring at all.  I'm very appreciative to see this truth, and have had this realization about women and their wedding rings.  Even some men hold this same manner of mentality.  Superficiality is a great blinder indeed.  To people whom think a marriage is about the wedding, the rings and the parties, a lasting marriage is not the goal.

I know not all women whom wear a wedding ring with a diamond are under this mind frame, but they are sure not under my own frame either.
This is the reason I share my views, because most people just haven't thought of things in this manner to see the connections or the like.  To make us more aware is my goal.  To help us all grow into what we say we want to be more of. But hey, to each his own, do your thang people.  You have to live with yourselves.

On The Subject of This Very Reality

Their was a man born long ago.  He grew into a very aware person, and noticed major amounts of confusion and slavery in so many different manners, that he chose to focus his focus on what he found to be the one and only way out.  To see why, when and how, he started at the very beginning of what many referred to as "the beginning".  Soon he  summed up the problem as being one group of people whom were imposing harm to many people of the world via those very writings about "the beginning".  Their actions and practices are known to many as "which craft", others refer to them as "satanists", historic cult members under the knowledge that they are harming others. Etc.  He learned their tool of  control.  He took these very old historic documents held hostage, and communicated to others the truth that he seen within them, the writings.  When he asked to read these documents the controllers seen no harm in allowing it because he was but a young boy and they felt he'd never understand.  But as he read, his eyes were opened with immensity, realizations poured down like waterfalls of heavy understanding.  He found who he was in these writings, he understood the writings to be about none other than himself.

So he began his life purpose of fixing what he found to be the main problem.  The miscommunicating and out right spreading of lies for the sake of a few to hold control over many.  He spoke such powerful truths that many wanted him dead.

Have you ever told someone something that is so true, you knew they would hate you for it?  Well that's what this man did.  But on the maximum level of hate as his level of truth was as well maximal in its stance.  He found that these people of slavery were being held captive in the most brutal and harmful manner of existence.  Mental slavery.  So he took his knowledge and began showing them how to be "free".  Truly free.

This group of people was quite unhappy with him.  How dare he deem himself the communicator of what they seen as the stupid and undeserving people, the ones like monkeys and animals.  How dare he take their servants and free them.  So they decided to murder all the captives, but the man knew this would not be a murder of simplistic death.  He knew they wanted to kill them slowly and precisely, with a hate so powerful one would have to understand the love of having children of their own to fathom it.  Imagine someone who hates you so, that they'd like to watch you suffer as you watch your children die a slow agonizing death, in front of your eyes.

Knowing this, he could not allow it to continue, he knew he was here and sent here for this very reason.  Why else would he be here?  He gave himself for their lives, asking them to accept his life as sacrifice for theirs.  They accepted, and he was killed, brutally.  But in their minds, they would wipe him out and continue with their plan for complete enslavement of those they viewed as less than, and in turn they used his very message to inflict even further confusion and tyrannical mental torture on the people of the world.  They did this via his own followers written words.  They took the writings and created a new set of writings formerly know as scriptures.  They created "The Holy Bible".

Or so they thought.

Little did they understand that the truth of spirit is indeed infallible and the presence of him who was once here, still lives here, within the consciousness of so very many people.

I think about life and such alot.  But it doesn't DRIVE me crazy, it just drives me.  It drives me to see and find and care.  Yet many are driven crazy by something.  Something present here today people whom have now deemed their savior, this book.  And under the confusion of thinking they are claiming the saving grace of this man, they look to this very book.  Pretty clever huh?  I think so.

People have made very well paying careers out of attempting to understand how and why this happens.  By definition a schizophrenic is someone with a "double mind", heavily confused and scared in many ways.   Contradiction is very true.  When your internal contradicts your mind, mental unrest turns into mental un-health and so, in turn, many drugs are sold for the attempt at sorting through truth vs. falsehood.  The reapers of crazy peoples disorders are not so hard to see once this is understood.

 schizophrenia |ˌskitsəˈfrēnēə; -ˈfrenēə|nouna long-term mental disorder of a type involving a breakdown in the relation between thought, emotion, and behavior, leading to faulty perception, inappropriate actions and feelings, withdrawal from reality and personal relationships into fantasy and delusion, and a sense of mental fragmentation.• (in general use) a mentality or approach characterized by inconsistent or contradictory elements.

Trying to understand others before understanding yourself is like trying to cut yourself a piece of cherry pie, before it's made, baked and served up warm with cream cheese whipped topping.

My own reason for being here is also on the level of what this man understood as being to influence the thoughts of others for the sake of helping them think through all the presented truths that are in fact not true at all.  Finally I know me, finally I know my thoughts are very similar to that of so many and my navigating of these thoughts and such holds an explanation so simple it can be comprehended by the most simplistic of minds as well.  I notice my explanation of this can maybe help others to live a peaceful life.

To me this must be the ultimate reason for living because what other reason can their be in comparison. I mean I know their is one ultimate reason but it's so simple I think it's easy to deny it as truth.  Just as some whom can't believe that another really loves them because they can't even really love themselves, we must and will all come to this knowledge when we are set to, when we are ready, when we are supposed to.  It's hard to believe some things that are in fact the truth but this doesn't make them any less true.

How can anyone really know what Jesus was saying?  Or that he said he is what they say he said he was or is?  We can't.  We only believe what others say he said.  Ultimately the source of our information is from our own selves.  Because what we believe and come to know, is internal.  We all move and create based on what urges us within our minds and hearts.  I can't speak on what others do or feel or the like, because I'm not them, even if I know them, they are still separate from me, but yet the same as me because were here together with one source of information for us all.  Some call it "God" some call it intuition or even knowing.

I maintain an obsession with the understandings of Jesus' findings.  For the reasons that his footprint on mankind is so massive and for the fact that his love and compassion still resonates clearly throughout space and time.   As well so many have yet to see or understand his true reason for existence.

Spirits, as I am understanding them, are only able to remain conscious of being a spirit and live within other "homes" aware, once they reach a specific level of .... something...  whatever.  I dunno, something that is achievable but set for us all in our own time or what not.  lol

I understand that he now resides in many homes, many bodies.  You see. We, as living bodies on this planet are in fact like "mansions" or castles, homes etc. Our hearts that is, and with this, some keep their homes clean and pristine for others to live in, or it becomes so dastardly to see and be in that no one, not even our own selves want to live in.  However, only God's will exists so what we do is necessary for us.  Just as evil must exist to be the comparison, it seems some of us need to have first experienced a shitty house in order to truly appreciate the cleaned home.

Lying or participating in harm to others is equivalent to spatting dirt and shit on our own home. And who wants to live in a shitty house.  Not me.

So many say they want to be like this man. This great man who came here and seen, spoke and helped.

Jesus came here as a home, like us.  His home was pristine and God the spirit of pure love, resided there without having ever left.  As I understand we all have God, but sometimes we have the other.  So God has to leave like a vagabond, and wonder about searching for permanent housing.  Though knowing soon he will find it so his travels are always in peace and reseted assurance.

I see now.  Now that I came to clear myself of all dogmatic practices I too chose to look to the source of information that so many claimed to be the "word of God", and found myself in it as well.  I found
the truth being the fact that God is here right now, because only RIGHT NOW exists.  All speak on anything other is in fact fiction and fantasy.  If it's about before you got here or where you might go to after you leave, it just doesn't matter, because only right now matters, because that is where you are.  Here.

Many agree on the terminology of "heaven" being a place to go to after you leave here, yet it is but a hope.  Heaven is that place in your heart, the pristine home.  God is the life of you living, not a man in the sky but a spirit in your home.

This home is just like a home we live in here in reality, daily we must clean and keep the home from becoming cluttered and dirty.  This is why speaking truth and living as we know is right is a daily practice, like washing your dishes daily.

I'm here, and you're here.

Were all here, so let's be clear in our communications.

This is my view of this reality.  It doesn't have to agree with your view or explanation thereof.

But I present it as it is and such.

Peace to you and yours.  Only God's will exists.